pageant update

So we are a little over a week from the big night and I'm feeling the momentum starting to build. It's exciting. I'm waltzing around the house in stillettos (?) and my brain's spinning from answering questions even in my dreams. I'm not lying. Sometimes my brain will not shut off at night. I am a little perplexed though. You see I'm aiming to be myself during this interview, however when I'm in a stiff suit and I have to sit up really straight and not gesture too much, that just doesn't equal me. I'll keep practicing I guess and fill myself with positive affirmations and pray for the best. I feel pretty good about the on stage walking, however there are 10, yes that's right 10 stairs that I have to navigate TWICE!!! Can we hold on to the rail? People are dropping out all over the place which makes me sad. I can say, if you are coming, it's really going to be a great show. The music is fun and the set will be amazing. Think Beauty and the Beast. I really am getting excited and I'm getting butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it.
I'm really starting to invest my heart into it which is scary, because I just don't want to be disappointed. There are amazing girls that are competing along side me. I figure if you don't see yourself as the winner then you never will be. I'm trying to be brave and start to imagine it, because during this whole process I've stayed away from those thoughts. I am happy with what I've accomplished so far and would be thrilled to be able to continue the journey as Mrs. Utah for another year. Wish me luck and I thank you all for your encouragement and kind words. Only one week to go and I can't wait to see how it all turns out!